Sigh, so I'm not dead. And this is awkward. I feel like I've grown very distant from all of you, I tell myself "Jared, you'll always be apart of that group blah blah blah" but I don't know anymore. Sure I have friends here, but I've grown this thing where I care too much about friends, possibly more than family. It doesn't help that all my friends here have problems that cause them to cut and things like that. Whenever I go to school and see the new cuts on their arms I feel sick and just not in a good mood. And whenever I get messages from them talking to me about their problems and stuff I get super depressed, and I hate myself for doing th